Conventions didn't change, I did. I can't go to a con just to have fun without feeling guilty because I know how much effort others have to put in to make the con happen, and I never learned how to meet and connect with people other than by volunteering, and volunteering isn't very much fun or rewarding for me any more.

Cons used to be fun for me because I went hoping to meet someone special the way you and SpotWeld have. And it's becoming apparent that it's less and less likely to happen. At this point the women I find attractive are likely to think me an old creep, or are already involved with someone, and I'm a proud and noble enough fool not to express my interest. I helped build the kind of fandom that I wished existed when I was younger, and I can't enjoy it.